Picture update.

My beautiful babies who are constantly reminding me now that "I'm not a baby, I'm a big girl", and "I'm a big boy"!

I can not believe that they will be three and four this summer!

Sleepy- Spring- Shining- Saturday

Here it is 6:20 am and Lee Lee and Monkey are wide awake ready to have an awesome day. Me? Not so much. I am so tired! I fell asleep last night too early, without doing my homework, so when I woke up this morning just after 4am in a panic, I was looking forward to some quiet time and possibly a shower before they woke up. Ah, things never go as planned and I need to learn to stop thinking that they will!!

So, let's see what is on the agenda for today... It is much too cold to go play outdoors and it is Saturday.... Cleaning day! I am going to "Spring Shine" my house today (or at least attempt to). I've been so wrapped up in avoiding housework this past week that my house looks like a disaster zone. On top of my "Spring Shining" I need to get myself a little more organized... I am planning on venturing into my own business later this month, so I need to get things ready for that. It is really exciting and will write more about that later.

I am off to get a jump start on the house.

Nap time: ETA 5 hours, 30 mintes!

A new begining.

It's been forever since I've been here and blogged. So much has changed in our lives in the past seven months.
My mother passed away in September. It was unexpected and I've had issues dealing with it. Parts of me feel like I should have been able to help her, I should have been doing more to encourage her to take better care of herself. I was having nightmares about finding her the day she died and having anxiety knowing that I am left to deal with her final affairs. I sought out the help of a therapist and was put on some anti-depressants and anxiety medicine. In the conversations with the therapist it became apparent that my "mommy issues" are a lot more complex than I've let myself believe over the years. I thought that I had made peace with the way I was treated as a child, I thought I had let it go and grew from the experience, but in reality I was living as if I was seven years old again pining away for my mothers approval. This mindset allowed for me to get caught up in a relationship that demanded the same of me. When I came to this realization I decided to permanently separate from Man Child. As much of a good guy he is, I could no longer take the feeling that my actions were constantly the reason for his moods. It's kind of hard to explain without sounding like a bitch, but I just knew that I couldn't live that kind of life anymore. Between the constant arguing and me feeling like I was never doing anything right by my husband I was becoming miserable. No matter how much we tried to work things out, I felt like I was always compromising my happiness for his benefit and it was never reciprocated. That is not a reasonable way to live for anyone.
I am preparing to move out of this state and go back to where my family is. I want my babies to grow up with family, surrounded by people who love them. I want the park picnics, the holidays, the bbq's... The togetherness. I think I have been searching for that my whole life and I don't want my babies to miss out on that.
Speaking of babies... They are awesome. They are enrolled in daycare and thriving in that environment. Lee Lee loves school and is excited every morning to get out the door. Monkey is less enthusiastic, but he is doing well there too. He is currently potty training and doing quite well. Now that Man Child is not here the babies have settled nicely into a routine and are the happy, loving, joyful babies that they were the last time Man Child was not living with us. I honestly hate that their father is not around for them, but on the other hand I see how this separation has not in any way impacted them negatively and I know for sure that I made the right decision. Everyone in this house is in a happy place and that I all that I want for them, for me, for us.

Cleared for travel!

Now where should we go!?

Japan?

Paris? London? Brazil?

How about the Amazon?

Who knows where we'll end up or how we'll get there.... Now that I have my passport and the babies have their applications in... Watch out world! We're coming(eventually)!

Looking cute in their passport photos!

Fun filled Saturday!

Our power went out for a while today. I looked out the window and saw the trees swaying back and forth and all of a sudden the power was out for four hours. Pretty ridiculous if you ask me. I've gone through hurricanes without losing power!

The kids were entertained for the most part by watching the rain. Then we played with Dora and Diego, force feeding them milk and apples. Then we played crash dummies with the matchbox cars and Wow Wow Wubzy, and read a couple of books.

Oh, that reminds me! We made it to the library today! From what I was told today was the grand opening of the library after its renovations were complete. It looks nice to me, almost the whole second floor is the kids area. I do wish that they put some more comfortable chairs up there for the kids... It was a nightmare bringing Monkey there today. I spent the whole time with him on my hip because he would just run down the isles of books, grabbing a handful every other step. He made it difficult for me to spend any real time with Lee Lee but we somehow managed to get four books for them and two books for me. I definitely want to go there on my own really soon, I haven't been the a library in ages!

I didn't think that the power would come back on in time for the kids to have a hot meal so I cracked open a can of spegettios. Monkey practically drank his bowl while Lee Lee took one look at them, turned up her nose and said "No thanks Momma", and walked back to the living room. Luckily for her, the power came back on and I went ahead with the dinner that I had planned. Pork chops, black beans, rice and tortillas. (Lee Lee pronounces tortillas- PORTILLAS, hahaha) Those were the BEST pork chops I have ever made. Wow. Really good. Lee Lee ate two helpings of beans and pork chop. Monkey cleaned his plate as well. Now they are sitting watching Transformers and snacking on popcorn since they did so well at dinner.

Bedtime in this house has been increasingly difficult. The kids think that they can just sleep on the couch and getting them up in their rooms is a fight every night. Last night however, Monkey was cooperative when I said it was bedtime. He climbed up the stairs, went into his room and got into his bed. I gave Lee Lee some kisses and convinced her to stop crying and went to kiss Monkey. He saw me, pulled back his blanket, patted his pillow, patted his mattress and said "for you" to me. Awww. That baby Monkey roped me into laying down with him and I ended up falling asleep.

The kids are doing great and amaze me everyday as they have since the days they were born. I'm off to cuddle them a bit before bedtime. <3

Pool!

We took the babies to our local pool today since I had the day off. They had such a blast. Both of the babies are looking a bit more mexican this evening much to Man Childs delight. I am absolutely exhausted so I am of to bed and I shall update more on todays events tommorrow. : )

Wake up horsey!

I slept until noon today. Let me say it once more just so that it will sink in.

I SLEPT UNTIL NOON TODAY!!!

Yeah, I still can not believe it.

Do any of you have a rough and tough toddler? Monkey is going to be the early death of me with his craziness. He literally can be walking around and all of a sudden out of the blue he throws himself onto the floor (or outside on the ground) and laughs like a lunatic. It almost looks like he is doing a belly flop... That's not it though. He is constantly running into the walls or other stationary objects. Like yesterday afternoon he ran nose first into my computer desk.

This is the result of that:



You can't really see it I guess, but it is a nice red line. Poor Monkey. Oh, and when he runs, and he definitely runs all of the time, he runs with his arms up behind him. It is the funniest looking thing, but he constantly gives me mini heart attacks when he is falling head first onto the pavement.

Here are a couple of pics of the kids. I do not have a camera, so these are poor quality phone pics. My goal is to get a camera soon though!






I was playing with the kids, rolling around on the floor and whatnot, and at one point Lee Lee jumps on my back and yells "WAKE UP HORSEY!" and starts bouncing up and down on me. Monkey runs over and tells her "I can't, I can't" while he pushes her off of me. I thought, oh, how sweet, he is defending me. Nope. As soon as her butt was off of me, SLAM, there's a Monkey on my back.

Lee Lee is addicted to my Android phone. I downloaded a few Apps for her that could keep her busy while we are in the car on long trips, or if we are sitting in a waiting room, or even if I just need her to have some quiet time. Well, the problem is now she always wants to play on the phone! All I hear is "Mommy, I want to match socks", "Mommy, I want to color your phone", "Mommy I want to do puzzles!". Ahhhh! She is driving me nuts! The other day, after hearing her tell me all day that she wanted the phone, I decided that enough was enough. I told her that she wouldn't be using the phone for the whole day. So she pouted and I felt bad, but I did not give in. Later in the day when I came back downstairs from what ever I was doing upstairs, I noticed that my phone was not on my desk. I knew immediately that Lee Lee had it. I was about to call her name when I noticed a breathing lump on my living room floor. Lee Lee had curled up on the floor with my phone and "hidden" herself under her blanket. It was all I could do not to laugh. I pretended of course that I couldn't find her, calling out, "Lee Lee, where are you, I can't find you", and naturally Monkey followed suit. The giggles that came out from that breathing lump on the floor just melted me. When she finally popped out saying, "I here Mommy, you so silly!", I took the phone and we went about our day. Of course she asked for the phone again, and again, and again throughout the day...

Gotta love my babies... <3